This post is more of a reminder to myself than anything else, really. I’ve really been bogged down by a lot lately, and it has a lot to do with the way I allow myself to be treated. I always want to blame other people, but when it comes down to it, I let them treat me like garbage.
If you allow yourself to be treated as a doormat day after day after day, people will continue to treat you as such.
If you allow yourself to be talked about negatively, people will continue to do it. I always wished I could be one of those people that could nip that shit in the bud – where if I heard someone saying something, or if someone told me someone had said something, that I could walk right up to them and be like what the hell is your problem? But I’m not. I sit and let it stew in my brain, until it either comes out in the form of tears or throwing something.
And on that note, I always see or hear girls complaining about guys not calling or texting them. Here’s a little advice that took me a long time to figure out: if he’s not calling or texting, he doesn’t want to talk to you. Plain and simple. If he wanted to, he’d make the time. There’s no doubt that this guy sucks, because you’re probably worth that phone call or that text. But you keep allowing the behavior so it continues to happen.
When B and I first started dating, I never had to worry if he would call or text, because he would. He wanted to talk to me, so he did.
If they want to talk to you – they will find a way. This goes for friends, too. I have a long distance friend who makes it a point to text me a few times a week.
Ok – off that soapbox.
The whole point of this is, is that I’ve let myself be treated like garbage for a long time. By friends, by people at work, by boys before I was married. And it really is all of my fault, because I allowed all of them to treat me that way. And I’m really really really sick of it.
So, today I’m making a promise to myself to stop it. These days of really making myself sick over how bad I feel have got to stop.
I’ll update my progress in about a month.