Yesterday was my first day back to work since having Sheffield. I am lucky that I work for an amazing company — in that they will let me work from home until a spot opens up in day care for us to take our baby. I know that this is a hot topic amongst mothers, but here are the reasons why I’m returning to work:
// I like to work. I am a workaholic, and I love just being at work and having something to do.
// I like my coworkers. I really do. I like having the friendships outside of work that I have with some of them.
// I like the money — sorry, but it’s true. Yes, some of it will be going to daycare costs, but the other amount will go to things like trips for when he’s older and a college fund.
// Most of the time, I genuinely like what I do — I just really like getting up and feeling like I have a purpose and having people rely on me. I don’t know — it’s a disease.
// In some ways, I feel like I should leave him with professionals. The day care we have him on the waiting list for has a teacher for every two to three infants – they will start potty training with him, and then when he eventually graduates onto older classes, they teach him to count to 100, the US presidents and words in Spanish, as well as the basics such as colors and shapes. Plus, he’ll get the social time with other kids, which I think is super important.
// I hate that I have to say this, but this in no way discredits those moms who stay home. These are MY reasons for going back to work — and again not every mom who goes back to work will share these same reasons. Maybe this post is me justifying it to myself to try to make me feel better — do I wish that I could stay at home and work with him forever? Of course, but that’s not realistic — my job is somewhat demanding, and I would not be able to give Sheffield the time and attention he needs while I’m trying to work. This is a decision that both B and I came to, and one that we can both live with.
I guess we’ll see in a few years how it all turns out. 🙂