Alabama + Graffiti

So I found this thing that is super cool on Ebay. I was looking through just trying to see if I could afford any new lenses (not yet! those things are super pricey!!), and came across the FishEye. It says it’s for panorama and the such, but it’s just an attachment to your lens, and I’m hoping it does that whole bubble looking thing with pictures, because that is just the neatest thing ever.

I also found a website for wedding and engagement photography that is absolutely beautiful. The way she captures everything is just amazing, and makes me super jealous that she gets to go to all those beautiful weddings. Also makes me jealous because their dresses and decor are amazing. Making mine look blah and cliche. ..but that is something else all together.

The good thing about this fish eye lens that I saw…only $25!! I’m seriously thinking about heading over to ebay and doing that “buy now” thing.

I would love to come to a point where I get to do that every day for a living. I would love nothing more.

So I have started a new hobby. It has always been something that I’ve been interested in, and finally have enough courage to actually do the damn thing! In case you haven’t noticed or cared, or read this in awhile, there is now a new blog, where I will post some pictures!

I have a new camera, and a good eye, and a willingness to shoot happy couples and pretty scenes! My ultimate goal will be to be a wedding photographer, to capture people in love and all the fun stuff that goes on with being in love.

I have a few classes that I will be taking at the end of July, then I have a DC trip, where I will test out these photography skills! I’m pretty excited about it…buying lenses and displaying my own art!

Anyway, that’s all. I’m thrilled to finally have something to do that I’m passionate about.

I love the beach.

There is nothing better than the beach. The way it smells. The way it feels. The food. I have my vacation in about 2 months, and all I can think about is going on. Actually, I guess it’s about 3 months, but still.

So we have a house rented. The in-laws have the dog for the week. A full week! A full week of Gulf Shores greatness.

I haven’t been down there in awhile, and while I enjoy doing things on vacation, shopping, hiking, etc., I don’t think that’ll be happening on this one. This will be a lay on the beach in my awesome beach chair and read. I plan on bringing a massive amount of books, and I plan on reading every single one of them.

I will get dark. I will drink fruity drinks. I will eat amazing seafood. I will have a whole week with my husband, uninterrupted time.

I can’t wait.

So I have come to a fork in the road. And it’s not a blonde vs. brunette argument, or what should I have for lunch fork in the road, but a legitimate, what in the hell should I do fork in the road?

It seems as though I have two options; I could follow my heart or my brain.

My brain and I have never quite gotten along . The brain is very logical. This is where the weighing of the pros and cons, the good vs. the bad, the you have worked on this too long to just throw it all down the train part of everything comes in. It says, “love me, I’m logical and make sense.”

I have always been able to usually ignore such rational thought and follow my heart instead. My heart is where all the passion lies, and the what could happen if I do this or don’t do this? I have made the majority of my decisions with my heart. And I live my life as “regret what you didn’t do, never what you do”. I got this motto from an ex-good friend of mine, who decided 15 years of friendship was worth ending (but that’s another story and I don’t care to scratch that scab), and I have lived by it ever since.

I have learned that my heart will mostly win out. I have learned that I’m not going to change who I am to change how I act. I have also learned that the person you are with MUST, MUST MUST love you for who you are, or it is never going to work.

So yes, I act with my heart, and I will probably do so in this situation as well. And you know what, I am not going to feel bad about it.

At all.

So, for the longest time I have been considering getting plastic surgery. I have this thing on my face that I don’t like, and it’s called my nose.

It wouldn’t be to help me breathe any better, and there’s no deviated septum or whatever it’s called, but I have hated my nose for as long as I can remember. It would be solely cosmetic, and for incredibly selfish reasons. Like, I hate my nose.

I got it from my dad/grandma, and it’s a very harsh, big nose. There’s a huge bump in it toward the top and it just sticks out like a sore thumb in pictures. It scrunches up when I smile, and then there’s a weird tip thing on it.

I don’t know. I may sound like a whiny 18 year old, but I am not. I am 26 and fully capable of making such decisions. I think at some point in time, this will happen, when it finally gets to the point that I absoulutely can’t stand it anymore.

But I was reading an article on Elle.com about some girl who had nose surgery when she was 18 because she really didn’t like it. And then now that she’s older, she regrets her decision, because she thinks she took away from the person she was supposed to be.

Maybe it’s because I’m 26 and I don’t feel that way, but I think it could only make me feel better about myself. And for that kind of satisfaction, finally, I think I could live with it.