Life is hard.

Now I know I’m not stating anything that everyone doesn’t already know, but it really does just suck sometimes.  

Work.  The ever-haunting past.  Home life.  House problems.  The continuing self-doubt.    Money problems.  Other people’s problems.  How is someone ever supposed to cram all of this into a short 24 hour day? 

It gets so exhausting.  Sometimes I feel like I need to run a bath, turn on some Adele and just cry.  Which is exactly what I did today.  I always heard that sometimes a girl’s just gotta cry, and after today/past week, I just needed it.  

It always seems that everyone knows exactly what to say to you to hurt you, whether it be a customer who tells you you’re doing a horrible job, or whether someone just simply states that, you don’t look that good today, or someone just simply moving on.  

I work to live; not the other way around, although lately it seems that it’s all I’ve done.  I spend so much time at work and thinking about work; it just never goes away.  I constantly put myself down for how I look or how much I weigh.  And that’s exhausting in itself.  I get so frustrated looking in the mirror or looking at the scale, and then I get angry with myself for that.  It’s an epic battle for me to accept myself the way I am.  and when I say epic, I mean epic.  sometimes I just think to myself, how did I end up with someone like B?  he’s so handsome and great, and I feel most of the time that I don’t even measure up.  

Anyway, that’s enough of the serious.  I have just been in a mood lately.

Sometimes you just want to get away.

The past week, B and I spent most of it in Kansas City with my dad.  It was a welcome relief from my life at work.  

Work has become more stressful in general.  I feel at every turn something goes wrong.  I can’t please everyone, and it seems that everyone is mad at me pretty much all the time.  For things that I can’t control.  Perhaps that spawned the hair change?  I don’t know, but every thing seems so out of sorts.  I can’t explain it.  

The first night in Kansas City we went to a pretty popular BBQ place, Jack Stack.  And of course, it was fantastic.  And in true LC fashion, there are pictures…

They have the best ribs on Earth.  And that cheesy looking thing?  Full of potato heaven.

I remember back to when someone asked me about my blog.  He said pretty much all he got out of it was BBQ places.  Right now, it still kind of stings to think about that when he said that to me.  

I let people who have no intentions of ever saying anything nice to me hurt me.  I let people who don’t mean anything hurt me.  I’m sick of that.  

I’m almost 30 and I still don’t know who I am.

You ever have a crazy moment?  Or crazy moments.  I had one a week ago.  One of those where I decided to just chop all of my hair off.

I tend to have those at least once around this time of year.  I let it grow, and then poof, it’s gone.

And I get mad at myself for it.  I love my hair long, but I have been going through so many things and feelings, and it’s just hair.  

So what do you think? 

Completely terrible?  

Like everything in life, all good things must come to an end.

We ended this trip with an amazing brunch and a semi-buzzed plane trip home.  

Our day at Orlando was made complete by mid-day drinks at a bar in the park Backwater Pub, where we found a self-proclaimed gypsy who knew a lot about Orlando.

So B asked her what a great place for Sunday brunch was…and she told us!  She told us about this place called Dexter’s in downtown Orlando, and the section of town that it was in reminded me of this perfect place that I like to call Austin, TX.  

It seemed to be the place to be seen for brunch on a Sunday.  It was filled with all sorts of people, mainly young 20 and 30 somethings with mobs of their friends, but there was a select gathering of older couples and families.

Shortly after our amazing brunch, we headed to the airport where we proceeded to drink so my plane ride would be tolerable.

so that was our fun trip.  One more day of work, and I’m off on another adventure, to KC.  

There’ll be lots of pictures of that too.

Promise. 

Orlando truly was a blast . I am so excited that I get another vacation this week; a whole 5 days to spend away from work.  Trust me; I need it.  I only have to make it past Monday and Tuesday and then I get to forget about the wonderful world of flatbed trucking for awhile.

There has been so many thoughts through my head . I can’t talk about everything on here, because I try to keep this from being too personal . Even though no one truly reads it, it still feels like it would be inappropriate.  

I usually try to immerse myself into some other activity to get out of the rut that I’m in, but this time I decided to cut my hair instead.  I feel so much more like myself.  I didn’t need to grow it out; there was no point.  I’m almost 30, and it’s 100 million degrees.  Plus, I think I look better with it this way.

Anyway, onto the second part of our Universal trip….

I made him go to Hard Rock.  He’s not such a fan.  But we had huge nachos and yummy drinks before going to see Lupe Fiasco perform at Universal.  So much fun.  And we got a little girl to take this picture.  We couldn’t believe what a good job she did!

Next up, the very last post on Orlando, possibly the best brunch on earth.