Whoa – four posts in one week – who do I think I am??
Let’s just jump straight in, shall we? This week has been straight garbage. The amount of work I’ve had has been ridiculous – I finally gathered some courage to tell someone that I was drowning and needed some help. That, in itself, is huge for me. I can barely admit those kinds of things to myself, let alone other people. But in this dumpster fire of a year, I guess we’re all doing things we never thought we’d do.
This was our last week of two days in-person school and three days remote. Next week the kiddo begins four days in-person and one day (Wednesday) remote. I have come to learn that since I have my own little space that I really love working from home, and I really love being able to see Sheff most days of the week.
Yesterday, both Sheff and I had a really bad day. Sheff came home from school and started crying at almost everything we said. I got frustrated and yelled at him. He then decided he needed a nap, but woke up remembering how I had yelled at him. So cue the mama tears, because hurting your kids feelings sucks. So as crazy people do, I poured a glass of wine and sat on our kitchen counter and just cried. I mean, giant sobs. Sheffield came out from his nap, and was like “mama, what’s wrong?” and as he jumps up onto the counter to be with me, he banged his head on the cabinets and starts crying, hysterically. I grab him and pull him into my lap, and we’re both just sitting there crying with each other. In the midst of the bad day, here are a mama and a son just crying it out. After we had both calmed down, I told him to hop down and grab a bag of open gummy bears that was sitting on the other counter. And we sat. We sat on top of the counter, eating gummy bears, while I apologized to him for hurting his feelings, and him repeatedly saying that it was ok. It was one of life’s messy moments, that turned into something really sweet. After dinner, Sheff and I snuggled under a blanket and watched football. It was a perfect ending to a really shit day.
This morning, we woke up and got ourselves a Starbucks treat. Pumpkin cream cold brew for mom, and a cake pop for the kid. And if that isn’t the best way to start a Friday, I couldn’t tell you what is. We are supposed to have some really great weather this weekend, so we will put this week behind us and enjoy it. Hope y’all have a great weekend too!