How’s everyone doing out there? If I’m being honest – things have been stressful and anxiety-inducing, and a little burn out-y. But here we are – living to live another day.
// We’ve listened to two really great podcasts lately – CounterClock Season 3 about the Pelley Prom Night Murders in Indiana. It’s a good binge – 20 episodes that are all pretty short. And one we’ve been enjoying for a bit is Anatomy of Murders – most of them are solved so you don’t get that cliff-hanging feeling at the end.
// I’ve stopped working out in the mornings. As much as I liked just changing into pajamas and hanging out when I got home, I didn’t like being completely worn out by the end of the day. It’s obviously a personal preference, but I tend to have more energy in the afternoons, so I’m back to my after-work working out.
// We got an email today stating that the kids practiced a Code Red Lockdown at school today. I can’t tell you how much this breaks my heart. It absolutely tears me apart thinking about Sheffield and the other kids having to go through this. The smaller kids call it a “bad guy” drill, and the principal urged us to talk to them about it this afternoon. I don’t know how I can do it without crying. I’ll try – I want him to understand why he needs to do that, but it’s not going to be easy.
// Speaking of school, we got the sweetest voicemail from Sheff’s teacher yesterday. She told us that he was a great kid and that he’s a great leader, and she can always rely on him. We get his first 9-week report card today, and I’m excited to see how he’s doing.
// Work has been tough lately – it’s been really hard adjusting to being back in the office every day, and to be honest, I hate it. I drop Sheffield at school around 715 every morning, and then I pick up up at 245 every afternoon. I miss being comfortable in my own home – and being able to knock out a load of laundry or dishes during a break. Not to mention, we had someone quit, and I offered to help pick up some of the slack. But it’s been a lot of the slack, and I’m beyond tired. And confused most of the time.
// I’ve been trying to give myself a lot of grace lately – I’ve been trying to not force myself to get everything done in an evening, and been trying to turn work off by at least 6pm. I read something that said to let kids just chill when they get home – they’ve had information shoved at them all day, and are exhausted when they get home from school. I’ve been trying to come to peace with my body and the image of it in my brain. I’ll never be happy until I can figure that part out – and my brain will never rest.
// Bennett and I get to see Jason Isbell this weekend – he’s requiring proof of vaccination or a negative Covid test to attend. I saw he’s been doing this at his concerts- and he gets a lot of shit for being a liberal “country” singer, but I appreciate his efforts to not be a super spreader.
Ready for a full weekend of football and football snacks – hope y’all have had a good week so far!